fix me in forty-five.

[KANDICE RYLAND]

I have a week to pack my things and then I'm off to
Winterthorne Academy. I've been accepted to the school I've wanted to attend since eighth grade yet when dad told me the news, I waved my hand and walked to my room.

My depression has lasted over two months now and I'm scared my medication has stopped working. I have a doctor's appointment tomorrow. She's supposed to prescribe me a new kind as well as give me names of doctor's I can see while I'm down there. My therapist wasn't so easily accepting, but then again, I've been seeing her for two years. She gave me her number and told me to call her regardless of time or situation. I can honestly say, out of all the crack pot medical jerks that have poked, prodded and picked my brain, she's the only one I really let in.

Dad just called me for dinner. He's been acting weird since he broke the news. Maybe he feels bad for being such an ass to me lately. He still doesn't compliment me, still assumes I'm out doing drugs and sleeping with all my guy friends... I've yet to touch an illegal substance and I haven't gone further than making out. Besides, I haven't had a boyfriend since seventh grade. No worries, dad, I assure you. I guess I better go. He just called again.

osez-vous à l'amour de moi. .
kandy

[KANDICE RYLAND]

I made a friend. Her name is Dani and she's pretty sweet. I like her hair, it suits her personality. She's got a fire to her, I trust her even though I've only known her a short time.

She was the first to greet me, student wise. It caught me by surprise honestly but I think it's a good thing. Let's hope my dorm room is just as "homey" as my own room back home in Texas.

[KANDICE RYLAND]

Dorm Three. That's going to be my home for the year. When I got there, I laid down on my bed and stared into space. Shortly after, I think, one of my room mates came in.

Her name is Xio. She's gorgeous and seems friendly enough. Then again, I've seen that episode of Buffy The Vampire Slayer where the room mate was psycho and all these bad things happened until they had to kill her at the end....

Okay, back to reality. I didn't feel any negativity from her. That's good. I want this year to be good. I need this year to be good. I don't think I've ever wished this hard for my life to finally be happy instead of some sob story that gets turned into some Lifetime Movie Channel made for tv movie. If that was the case, I'd want someone pretty to play me. Maybe the lead singer of Forever More, Kayley. Yeah, definitely her. She's pretty bad ass.

Seriously, Kandice? One track mind.... I'm done before I start writing the script.

[KANDICE RYLAND]

You'd think after accidentally teleporting in the middle of a conversation with my room mate that I'd pay more attention to what I'm doing when it happens again, right? Wrong.

I'm never gonna make it in this place. I'll be eaten alive. Fantastic.

[KANDICE RYLAND]

My first class and already, I feel insanely stupid and alone. Not even five minutes into waiting for class to start, I find this boy banging his head on his desk.

Either the classes are really hard or really boring. Either way, I hope there's some excitement in my future.